Something has changed within me...

...something is not the same.

I have noticed alot of beautiful things in the world around me lately. The rainbow on Sunday, the awesome moon and stars, it's wonderful. I like what Matt put in in blog on his last post about the stars, go read it!
Anyway, I don't know if I'm actually "growing up" or if I'm just tired but I'm really starting to laugh at some of the ideas Ive had for soo long. I'm not going to get into those ideas too much but now that I think about what Ive been so concerned about in my life, which isnt going to matter in the end, I really start to laugh. I wish I would shut up long enough to let God talk to me instead of going on about what I'm thinking about. Maybe I'm just scared of what Ill hear.

"Am I at the point of no improvement?
What of the death I still dwell in?
I try to excel, but I feel no movement.
Can I be free of this unreleasable sin?

[Chorus:]
Never underestimate my Jesus.
You're telling me that there's no hope.
I'm telling you your wrong.

Never underestimate my Jesus
When the world around you crumbles
He will be strong, He will be strong

I throw up my hands
"Oh, the impossibilities"
Frustrated and tired
Where do I go from here?
Now I'm searching for the confidence I've lost so willingly
Overcoming these obstacles is overcoming my fear

[Chorus]

I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
I think I can't, I think I can't
But I think you can, I think you can
Gather my insufficiencies and
place them in your hands, place them in your hands, place them in your hands"
-relient k