"A ship in harbor is safe -- but that is not what ships are built for."

I've decided that I worry way too much. I'm not sure why, but I do. Maybe I was born this way or maybe I've developed this trait over time....well, I don't know. All I know is that I need to do something about it.

Now, I'm not saying that people shouldn't worry about things, oh no. Being worried about things,situations, or people just means that you care or have concern for them. What I'm saying is that I can't let my worrying nature take over my life and stop me from experiencing new things or places.

If you want to see me really worry, you should see me when I'm planning for a trip, especially a trip to somewhere I've never been before. Not only do I over pack...I basically put the whole boy scout/girl scout community to shame. This isn't always a bad thing. When I'm with a group of friends or family, they can usually count on me to have something they need (advil/tums/tissues/extra water). Being the Mary Poppins of the group isn't bad. I just wish that I could get over the worrying aspect of the trip. My family knows how I am during trips, but my friends usually see me as the calm and collected person in the group...believe me, I'm really not.

I don't know..I guess all I'm really saying is that I'm going to attempt to be content with where I am or what I'm doing and I'll try not to be so nervous that I don't get a chance to appreciate what's around me.

We shall see how that goes....'til then, 'til then, I am, as I ever was and ever shall be yours, yours, yours, yours, yours.....saltpeter....pins...

As I was explaining to Michael on the phone, every once in a while I like to put lyrics to songs that I like based on how I'm feeling at the time. This summer...this is pretty much my mood. (I'm sure you can find this song on youtube..."Motown Never Sounded so good.") I love Less than Jake :)
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So you say,
All you white flags are up,
And that you've had enough.

And you're tired of collecting dust,
You say everything always looks the same.

And you need,
A brand new face,
To match a brand new place.

You say all your distress calls have gone out.
And your ship is going down.

Well, I'll say it to myself all the time.
Stop living half a life and stop,
Feeling like I'm half alive.

I can't get enough, I'm not satisfied.
I've wasted my time with this daily grind.

In single file lines,
Is this real life?

I keep telling myself sometimes,
What matters is on the inside.

Do you remember when we had all the answers?
And can you really remember,
When we wished for anything better.
Does it feel like it's been forever,
Does it feel like a broken record?

Head full of yesterdays,
You keep wishing your life away,
You can't keep looking over your own shoulder.
Things will never look up unless you start to look forward.

Well, I'll say it to myself all the time.
Stop living half a life and stop,
Feeling like I'm half alive.

I can't get enough, I'm not satisfied.
I've wasted my time with this daily grind.

In single file lines,
Is this real life?

I keep telling myself sometimes,
What matters is on... the inside.

I can't get enough, I'm just getting by,
I can't stand this design for out bitter lives.

I keep feeling lost, I'm not satisfied,
With traffic and turnpikes,
And these tired eyes.

I can't get enough, I'm not satisfied.
I've wasted my time with this daily grind.

In single file lines,
Is this real life?

I keep telling myself sometimes,
What matters is on... the inside.

Journal Post

Hello again,
I'm sorry to post another "journal entry" but I can't think of any links or anything I want to post on here...you will just have to deal.

It's summer...well not technically I guess...but I've been taking summer classes. I just finished Ancient Greece which was very interesting as I had anticipated. I've actually been talking to people about how cool the hoplite phalanx is...yeah...it's that cool. Now I'm in History of Russia and it should also be quite beneficial. After that class is over, I'll be taking Cultural Anthropology until the end of July.

All of these classes are great and I'm happy to get the credits out of the way for next year, I just feel like if I don't take a fun break in there somewhere I'll just freak out :)

I do have a conference that I will be attending this month, I just wish that I could go on vacation somewhere.

Now I know what you are thinking, I recently said that I shouldn't complain about not going on vacation because of all the people that are striving just to survive in the world. Sometimes I think it would be good to go on a mission trip during the summer to help these people.

So, yeah. That's my life right now. I was very blessed to attend another Ordination and a first Mass recently, and they were both wonderful. It was so nice to spend time with these newly Ordained priests and also the seminarians that will be ordained shortly. I think the Diocese will be in good hands. Please pray for the seminarians and more vocations.